Death of a Parent


Daddy

I lost my dad to cancer on April 20, 2009 . We found out about the cancer in March. How our world would change in the matter of weeks. I would give anything to hear his voice. To see him smiling when I come to visit. Now as days pass I am reminded that I dont have you here with me. I watch my brothers and sister along with mom in this "funk" I know you would want us to be happy. But how can we with you gone. I keep my promises to you those last few days You were here. I know you are walking with your dad and seeing us so clearly now. I love you dad and miss you so much.
  posted by fraser4 on July 05, 2009


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I know how you feel, I lost my Mother in April, 2007 and my Daddy in Oct. 1983. We helped my Mother get through Daddy's death, then she came to live with us. Even after that long, I still miss him so much. I still wonder if there was anything I could have done and feel guilty with both of my parents for every little thing I didn't do. The pain of losing my Mother is so intense. it is so hard to go on with normal life and "be happy", knowing that a big part of your happiness is missing. I wish I could tell you that I have all the answers, but I don't. I can just tell you that I understand and let you know that you are not alone in your grief. I've been told that now we have to find a new normal and that things will never be the same again and your heart will never be healed this side of Heaven. Your loss is more recent than mine and I have gone through some things already that you have not yet experienced. At first I felt guilty about smiling or laughing or being happy about anything. I have children and grandchildren that are very important to me. And I have had to try to put them ahead of my grief.
Just know that you are not alone, there are lots of us out here that are willing to lend our hearts to you.

  posted by Hannah on July 09, 2009

Thanks for you comments on July 5. Today is a month since Daddy passed on into Heaven. I finally broke down last Tuesday. It helped to give in and let go. I know how it is with the promises. I am trying to take care of Mama the best I can, but she misses him so much. I love you daddy!

  posted by white dove on July 11, 2009