Loss and Grieving
Writing has helped in my healing
On November 27, 2008, my sister, my best friend, my everything, was accidently ran over by her boyfriend with his large truck. Hours later on November 28, 2008 she was pronounced dead and my world will never be the same. However, writing has helped in my healing process. I will post three writing that I have done over the past 9 months. Though everyone's situation is different, my hope is that I can help just one other person to feel like they are not alone in this world.
Writing No. 1 - 2 days after my sister's death
For those of you who may not know, my sister, Allison, passed away early Friday morning, November 28, 2008. I'm not quite sure how I'm writing this right now, because I am shaking so bad and the pain inside is absolutely indescribable. However, I know that she would not want me to feel this way, so I am trying my damnest to survive and get through this.
As I think Super Dave may understand it best, sometimes writing helps to cure the pain, even if it is just for a brief moment.
I really just want to get the story straight. I've heard so many reports about what people think happened and it just makes me so angry when they don't get it right.
Allie was involved in an extremely unfortunate accident late Thursday night. She had severe injuries from her abdomen to her brain. She was rushed to the hospital via ambulance and went straight into surgery. However, her injuries were too severe. We were told just after midnight that she would most likely not survive. Many of her closest friends and family were able to say good-bye. And after a long night/morning of fighting, her body just couldn't do it anymore and she passed away around 5:30 a.m. with our dad, auntie, uncle and her big sis (me) next to her side holding her. And I know that my mom was there for her step by step taking her to heaven to be by her side.
I'm still trying to figure out why I'm writing this...I know that many who read this may not know my sister, but I think this is why I write.
You see, my sister was an absolutely amazing person. It didn't matter if you knew her for 2 hours or 25 years. She always seemed to bring this sense of peace over everyone. And you know, when Allie was around, you didn't have to worry about anything. It was always a great time.
As most of you know, Allison and I have always been very close. After my mom passed away when we were very young, we leaned on each other for everything. And though we had our moment of bickering and bitching at each other...we were best friends. And this last year with her has been the best I could have asked for. We became so much closer than we already were. When I moved in with her last December, we both knew...this is either going to work out really well or its going to suck. Well, it was fantastic.
I feel so blessed to have had such an amazing sister for the last 25 years and though we may not understand all that is happing right now and for what the reason, things do happen for a reason.
I have had two of the most amazing people taken from me in my life, my mom and my sister. Now, its just me and my dad. I think that my sister's death will affect people in ways that they may not expect. Ways that will change their lives forever.
I will forever miss my sister more than any of you could imagine. She was my everything and I wonder from minute to minute how I'm going to make it through this tragic accident. But I have to...I don't know how, but I have to and I will.
To everyone and anyone who knew my sister I am so sorry for your loss. But remember one thing...though Allie is gone to a better place and is with my mom now, she is still with us and always will be. We just have someone else looking out for us now.
I could keep going on and on for days and maybe one day soon, I will do another writing, but for now I'm going to go. Please spread the word to anyone who may have known my lil sis:
Saturday, December 6, 2008 at 12:00 p.m. we will hold a funeral service for her at Journey Christian Church on 441 in Apopka. We will start with an hour of viewing a slide show of pictures, listen to music (some of her favorite songs - LOW :-) and I will provide Sharpe markers for those who want to participate in writing a message or comment on her casket. At 1:00 p.m. we will start the service and after that we will go to Highlands Cemetery at Hunt Club so we can lay her to rest next to my mom.
I hope you will all be able to make it and my warmest wishes and thoughts are with all of you. We will all get through this...we just have to stick together.
Allie: I love you sis and I always will. I will never forget you and I will never forget how amazing you have made my life in the last 25 years. I LOVE YOU AL!!!
Writing No. 1 - 2 days after my sister's death
For those of you who may not know, my sister, Allison, passed away early Friday morning, November 28, 2008. I'm not quite sure how I'm writing this right now, because I am shaking so bad and the pain inside is absolutely indescribable. However, I know that she would not want me to feel this way, so I am trying my damnest to survive and get through this.
As I think Super Dave may understand it best, sometimes writing helps to cure the pain, even if it is just for a brief moment.
I really just want to get the story straight. I've heard so many reports about what people think happened and it just makes me so angry when they don't get it right.
Allie was involved in an extremely unfortunate accident late Thursday night. She had severe injuries from her abdomen to her brain. She was rushed to the hospital via ambulance and went straight into surgery. However, her injuries were too severe. We were told just after midnight that she would most likely not survive. Many of her closest friends and family were able to say good-bye. And after a long night/morning of fighting, her body just couldn't do it anymore and she passed away around 5:30 a.m. with our dad, auntie, uncle and her big sis (me) next to her side holding her. And I know that my mom was there for her step by step taking her to heaven to be by her side.
I'm still trying to figure out why I'm writing this...I know that many who read this may not know my sister, but I think this is why I write.
You see, my sister was an absolutely amazing person. It didn't matter if you knew her for 2 hours or 25 years. She always seemed to bring this sense of peace over everyone. And you know, when Allie was around, you didn't have to worry about anything. It was always a great time.
As most of you know, Allison and I have always been very close. After my mom passed away when we were very young, we leaned on each other for everything. And though we had our moment of bickering and bitching at each other...we were best friends. And this last year with her has been the best I could have asked for. We became so much closer than we already were. When I moved in with her last December, we both knew...this is either going to work out really well or its going to suck. Well, it was fantastic.
I feel so blessed to have had such an amazing sister for the last 25 years and though we may not understand all that is happing right now and for what the reason, things do happen for a reason.
I have had two of the most amazing people taken from me in my life, my mom and my sister. Now, its just me and my dad. I think that my sister's death will affect people in ways that they may not expect. Ways that will change their lives forever.
I will forever miss my sister more than any of you could imagine. She was my everything and I wonder from minute to minute how I'm going to make it through this tragic accident. But I have to...I don't know how, but I have to and I will.
To everyone and anyone who knew my sister I am so sorry for your loss. But remember one thing...though Allie is gone to a better place and is with my mom now, she is still with us and always will be. We just have someone else looking out for us now.
I could keep going on and on for days and maybe one day soon, I will do another writing, but for now I'm going to go. Please spread the word to anyone who may have known my lil sis:
Saturday, December 6, 2008 at 12:00 p.m. we will hold a funeral service for her at Journey Christian Church on 441 in Apopka. We will start with an hour of viewing a slide show of pictures, listen to music (some of her favorite songs - LOW :-) and I will provide Sharpe markers for those who want to participate in writing a message or comment on her casket. At 1:00 p.m. we will start the service and after that we will go to Highlands Cemetery at Hunt Club so we can lay her to rest next to my mom.
I hope you will all be able to make it and my warmest wishes and thoughts are with all of you. We will all get through this...we just have to stick together.
Allie: I love you sis and I always will. I will never forget you and I will never forget how amazing you have made my life in the last 25 years. I LOVE YOU AL!!!
