Death of a Parent


Missing my Daddy-O

My father passed away 2 and half months ago. He was only 54, I am 24 and his only daughter, though I have 2 brothers. My father was closer to me than anyone in our family. Maybe it was a father/daughter thing but he always felt comfortable to tell me how he truly felt. Which he didn't do with many people. He was a heroin addict most of my life, and used his addiction to mask his demons. I have been traveling for over the past 6 months and in doing so missed his funeral and having a proper goodbye. It wasn't a sudden death, it was a long time coming, in addition to his drug addiction he had liver cancer for 6 years. Part of me feel's guilty for not being there, the other relieved that he is no longer in any pain or shame or denial and grateful that he is at peace. I'm not one to join online chat groups, but if anyone out there has something they'd like to share or can relate to my experience, I would appreciate the support on these lonely travels of mine. Thanks for reading...
Posted by AL5446 on October 04, 2009


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Hi My dad died in mid Sept. he was about to turn 57 he had broke his neck in 83 and was in a wheel chair he died from an accident . My mom was a little younger than him and she died this year too she had a similer addiction Miss them so much but both suffer allot.

posted by Melodyharmony on October 08, 2009

I lost my Daddy-O last month to brain cancer. He was my best friend, and the nicest person you could ever meet. I was not at the house the day he died, as I have an infant to care for. My husband is incarcerated due to his addiction to Heroin. I, too, feel very lonely. The worst part is that my brother has rejected me due to my emotional inconsistency. Don't you think that people should be given a reprieve from judgment during the grieving process?

posted by btm on October 21, 2009

I WASN'T ABLE TO SPEND TIME WITH MY DADDY BUT UNTIL THE LAST FEW MONTHS OF HIM DYING. I'M 27 NOW AND WAS 17 WHEN HE DIED. HE LEFT ME WITH NOTHING BUT GOOD MEMORIES THAT WE SHED. I WAS ABLE TO SAY, GOODBYE AND I LOVE YOU BUT WAS NOT ABLE TO FORGET MY PAST.THE PAST OF NOT SPENDING THAT TIME I NEEDED WITH MY FATHER. AND NOW HE IS GONE . ALL I CAN SAY TO YOU IS TO REMEMBER THOSE GOOD TIMES AND AND ALL THE SECRETS YOU SHARED. TRUST ME I GET TICKELED WHEN I CAN CLOSE MY EYES SND SEE MY FATHER TALKING TO ME AND SMILING THAT WHAT MAKES IT FEEL AS IF HE'S STILL HERE. LOOK AT PICTURES, TALK TO HIM BECAUSE BELIVE YOU ME OUR LOVED ONES HAS NOT LEFT. AND THEY HERE WITH US . IT MAKE BE IN A DREAM BEFORE WE REALIZE THAEY HAVE COME TO US WITH A MESSAGE .

posted by BLESSED on November 09, 2009