Death of a Spouse


LOST THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

MY HUSBAND DIED OCTOBER 19,2009. WE WERE TOGETHER FOR 23 YEARS AND MARRIED FOR 16 YEARS. I AM HEARTBROKEN. I FEEL LIKE HALF OF ME IS MISSING. HE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH ESOPHAGEAL CANCER EXACTLY ONE YEAR AGO AND WE THOUGHT HE WOULD BEAT IT BUT IT CAME BACK WITH A VENGANCE AND TOOK OVER HIS LUNGS IN SEPTEMBER AND HE DIED 7 WEEKS LATER. I AM IN SHOCK. I NEVER EXPECTED I WOULD HAVE TO BURY MY 44 YEAR OLD HUSBAND. THIS IS THE MOST HORRIBLE THING I HAVE EVER BEEN THROUGH IN MY LIFE. I FEEL LIKE CRAWLING IN A HOLE AND NEVER COMING OUT. I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO DIE WITHOUT HIM. THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME GOING IS MY SON. IF IT WASN'T FOR HIM I DON'T THINK I COULD GO ON. I FEEL COMPLETELY LOST WITHOUT HIM. THERE WILL BE A PIECE OF ME MISSING FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I TREASURE THE TIME WE HAD TOGETHER BUT IT WASN'T LONG ENOUGH. THE ONE THING THAT GIVES ME SOME PEACE AND COMFORT IS THAT HE DIED IN MY ARMS AND I KNOW HE IS KNOW LONGER SUFFERING AND AT PEACE.
  posted by MKP on October 22, 2009


Comments:

Hi,
lost my 49 year old husband on September 25th, 2009 he was diagnosed with esophageal cancer on April 3rd of
2008 and was only given 6 months to live. He fought hard for 18 months and in the end the cancer had spread
to his brain Chronic Menangitis to the brain, we were in Houston Texas at MD Anderson where he had a stent
placed and became very ill. By the Grace of God we were able to get him home, I was told he had 3 months to
live and he passed away at home a week after our return. I too am heartbroken and so so sad. We have Shih Tzu's
and no children, I don't know what I would be doing without my dogs. So looking forward to the Holidays being
over as I have been overwhelmed with my grief the past 2 weeks. We were together for 17 years married for 12.
My peace also comes from knowing he is no longer suffering or in pain and is with GOD. Where do you live ?
I would love to talk to you on the phone. Did your husband smoke and or drink alcohol ?

  posted by TRACy poulos on December 28, 2009