Death of a Spouse
LOST THE LOVE OF MY LIFE
MY HUSBAND DIED OCTOBER 19,2009. WE WERE TOGETHER FOR 23 YEARS AND MARRIED FOR 16 YEARS. I AM HEARTBROKEN. I FEEL LIKE HALF OF ME IS MISSING. HE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH ESOPHAGEAL CANCER EXACTLY ONE YEAR AGO AND WE THOUGHT HE WOULD BEAT IT BUT IT CAME BACK WITH A VENGANCE AND TOOK OVER HIS LUNGS IN SEPTEMBER AND HE DIED 7 WEEKS LATER. I AM IN SHOCK. I NEVER EXPECTED I WOULD HAVE TO BURY MY 44 YEAR OLD HUSBAND. THIS IS THE MOST HORRIBLE THING I HAVE EVER BEEN THROUGH IN MY LIFE. I FEEL LIKE CRAWLING IN A HOLE AND NEVER COMING OUT. I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO DIE WITHOUT HIM. THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME GOING IS MY SON. IF IT WASN'T FOR HIM I DON'T THINK I COULD GO ON. I FEEL COMPLETELY LOST WITHOUT HIM. THERE WILL BE A PIECE OF ME MISSING FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I TREASURE THE TIME WE HAD TOGETHER BUT IT WASN'T LONG ENOUGH. THE ONE THING THAT GIVES ME SOME PEACE AND COMFORT IS THAT HE DIED IN MY ARMS AND I KNOW HE IS KNOW LONGER SUFFERING AND AT PEACE.
