Loss and Grieving
my brother
Ive been reading so many stories of people losing their love ones and I so know where you all are at.I get up everyday crying and I go to bed crying. I recentley lost my brother, he was 42, a father, a husband, a friend and over all a guy who would do anything for anyone! My brother was riding his Harley, the one thing he so loved doing,when a deer ran out in front of him knocking him off balance,throwing him into mail boxes killing him instantley.The story only gets worst..he died only 200 yards from my farm on the side of the road. My parents where outside, and were not sure what had happened at first,only seen a bunch of dust fly through the air. My mom rushed down the road and had found my brother face down in the ditch dead! My God! I was away at the beach when I recieved the call, I will never forget that day for the rest of my life.I was and still am very devistated by the death of my brother, its only been 3 months. A week after my brother died my mom recieved a phone call from my brother's son he had never met and was looking to come meet him,unfortunatley we had to tell him about his dad..it was very heartbreaking for all of us.
I keep wondering why the heck did this happen? He was a good man! I love him so much and I question the whole God thing and wonder why? I feel angry a lot and Im sad. I just miss him and my heart hurts so much, some days I feel like I"m going to lose it, but I keep trying to be strong and keep hearing my brother say "it's ok sissy".I just wish I knew that he was ok and then maybe I would be ok.
I keep wondering why the heck did this happen? He was a good man! I love him so much and I question the whole God thing and wonder why? I feel angry a lot and Im sad. I just miss him and my heart hurts so much, some days I feel like I"m going to lose it, but I keep trying to be strong and keep hearing my brother say "it's ok sissy".I just wish I knew that he was ok and then maybe I would be ok.
